Cross My Heart and Hope To Die
Sandra Florence

It's a glorious place here, we settled in last night.
Emma and Alice are sleeping now.

Emma and Alice are asleep now. We've had a long journey ....
I can't get a hold of anything out here-the space is so big,
you'd never imagine
Cross my heart
but we've decided to go all the way to California-sea to shining sea.
Emma and Alice are sleeping. I have a moment to myself. We stopped.....
This darkness stirs up both fear and a feeling of freedom

After weeks of happiness
my mother gone
Passed away into what
Wind and shadows.

Cross my heart and hope to die
I miss her
Want to put my arms around her
Didn't spend enough time with her
loved her anyway,
Did adore her.

Cross my heart and hope to die this apron awakens emptiness,
a secret
A concoction
A memory that can't be accurate.

Cross my heart and hope to die
In death parents become
Larger than life once again,

Cross my heart I lose touch
Have second thoughts
Fear my own death

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